I just finished reading a post by Sarah Nun and it got me to thinking about something I have hashed over in my head many, many times.
It's the feeling that you are completely ordinary.
It is probably my biggest fear. I know there are worse things in life, but to be told there is nothing extraordinary about you? Well that stings. I don't know this from personal experience, no one has ever told me that I'm just plain ordinary, but at times I feel it very strongly (like when people have nothing else to say about me other than I am a nice girl).
I remember watching the movie American Beauty, these lines hit me every time:
Angela: Yeah? Well at least I'm not ugly!
Ricky: Yes you are, and you're boring and totally ordinary and you know it.
Angela: I don't think that there's anything worse than being ordinary.
I have been striving lately to let the extraordinary come out. Everyone has it within themselves, though it is hard sometimes to let it go. Between John encouraging me and Jillian showing me, I think I just might get their someday.
Until then, here's to letting go.